[This pose talks more about the Baritone Section...]

[Good things come in small packages, bad things don't]

[ Yes It's a very long post, get ready to be flooded with words]

Okay, so here is a little random question huh?

      "Who do you think will be the new baritone SL after the Sec 4 seniors left?"              [5]

      (Other sections are welcome to give us some opinions.)

Yeap. The seniors are leaving (really soon) and we're only left with the Sec 1, 2 and 3s after that. So who'll take over the pose? There's only a few bunch of people in that section though... but even so, after the senior leaves, we must stay stronger than ever! (But not too strong as to like... overpowering other section?)

Anyway, back to the question... well let me rephrase it this way:

     "Who is the best person to nominate to lead the whole section?"              [6]

side tracking a bit...)

Today, I receive a phone call from you-know-who. That person made me felt more useless than usual, but made me stronger at the same time. That person wanted to ask me a question, but in the end, that person's question was not answered, and what's more, that person gave me a lecture, a lecture which has boost my morale... ( a little bit, but hey, at least it's better than nothing...) 

Sigh... Why am I so useless?

I have more of an introvert personality, I am less open-minded, I am extremely pessimistic, I am bigoted, I am blind* and I can't perceive thing that other normal human would. I am BLUR**. I have an extremely forgetful mind, and I keep on forgetting to do things/note down stuff... etc. I suck. I am the exact opposite of TJ, and maybe, WS. They have such wonderful vocabulary and grammar. They are able to counsel other people, giving them advices. I can't. They are able to talk perfectly one-on-one without any stammer and breaks. They are able to communicate well. They are able to do the RIGHT things to acheive their goals. I can't. While others were talking to each other, chuckling about funny stuff, I was there, marvelling about Maths formula and Scientific facts, in my very own "Land of the Knowledge".

That brings me to another point. Yes, Xavier (couldn't help it but to write your name down) I do look like a block of wood when the committees are 'called' to go down. While others were saying things about what they think about other section and the day's performance, I was there, looking at them, amazed at how they are able to say that much things about Choir(when I myself can't). If I remember correctly, I remember that there was once, when I was late for practice... Then suddenly ZH wanted me to say a thing about choir. Shoot. I blabbered and stammered my way through. That thing which I said was useless anyway. And yes ZH, you're right. I do not how to speak fluent English, in fact I do not know how to even say a short speech properly, not to mention to a bunch of people.

I study triple Science, and so I usually have more pressure than anyone else. But why are people from my class that are in Choir able to take the stress? (Or looks like they are able to) Why are they able to do the right things? I still remember about the 'stringendo' part in that Natsu song, I thought that part has a constant tempo, I told another person from another section, that. But in the end, after I realised that I was wrong, I felt so darn gulity even though they knew that I was wrong anyway. And thus, I am afraid, afraid that I was teaching the section the wrong things, I don't want the section to suffer because of me, as they will call me a lousy ASL. (like the lousy pianist, if you know who I'm referring to.) I kept my mouth shut, unless there was an obvious mistake in the section. 

My The Baritone section consist of a lot of people with different personalities, some of them which people hate, some of them which people would prefer. Then there was this person (FSL), which we came in together. He changed so much as time flies by... now he seems to lead the whole section as the current SL (ZH) has his remaining days with us. (Please read the paragraph starting with 'Yeap'.) Why is he so brave, to step up and lead and guide, even though he is at the lowest rank in the 'Choir hierarchy system'? What must I do to surpass this guy, this obstacle?

I know, the chances are slim, that I can win that guy. It is like a mere level 5 fighter fighting against a level 20 boss. I am that level 5 noob.  I know I suck. Thanks a lot. That guy is showing more 'aggressive' moves every time there are combines. If only that guy can change change his attitude or something. Same to me, somehow...

Back to THAT question... Will me myself get promoted to SL This year? Nah. I always look on the lower side of life. Don't blame me, but that's my attitude. (Just press Ctrl+F and find the word pessimistic) I always thought that some people, like WS or TJ, those who are able to lead a whole group and are able to take massive stress, to become the SL, skipping the ASL phase. They can be considered as my idol, somehow...

This post might be too long eh? I'll just end of here then.

* blind: both "unwilling or unable to perceive or understand", "not having or based on reason or intelligence", "of concealed or undisclosed identity; sponsored anonymously" and "hard to see or understand"

** BLUR: I have a very poor memory and yes, that means I am forgetful. I am also slow in reaction and yeap, keep the bad adjective rolling in...

"Our greatest freedom is the freedom to choose our attitude."-- From that person whose name that I have forgotten.